sometimes i feel as though i'm going to be alone forever. actually, it's not just sometimes, its usually all the time. this has been my biggest worry lately. every time i get close to someone and develop feelings, we stop talking. i don't even have to say i have feelings for them or anything. it's like everyone is scared. idk what to do. i just really think i'm going to be alone forever. and that scares me more than anything else. all of my friends have someone. and i can't stand not being able to find someone for myself.
as for the rest of my life,
i am devoting myself to
a half hour of the flute once a day, at least.
my new diet, i can't wait for it.
i started taking new vitamins
i feel great. i just can't wait til i fell 300% because i'm eating right and exercising regularly again.
so as for everything besides being alone, life is good.
but i'm still afraid of being alone forever.
