another snow storm

sick of the snow. absolutely can not wait for the summer
but i only want summer if i am going to look good.
my biggest problem is my lower belly. i can't get it to go away
so far i am seeing results everywhere but there. but i am hoping that will change.
another problem i have is my huge calves. i mean they're all muscle, but i can't even where boots becasue they won't fit over them... that is a burden. because idk how to get them to become smaller. it seems exercise will only increase the size.

this weather always brings me down. and my mom, she isn't making me much happier. my jewlry box is still packed away since she moved into this hosue. numerous times i have gone upstairs to find my stuff in the attic and can't. and she tells me to go up there and look for it. i think she should find it. she's up there everyday. wtf she apparently knows where my stuff is.

i'm really worried i'm not going to get into a school. i really hope i do . monmouth preferably. i can't be ready for an audition in a month. lets just face it, i am out of practice from not having an ensemble to play in. my flute needs to be cleaned and have new pads, and i can't teach myself everything. that is why i am in school. i hope this works out. :( if not idk what to do...

i have no positive thoughts at the moment.

i just have to think positive.
i will look good this summer.
i will get into school.
and i'm going to have a good job, and make lots of moneys.

life is good. it's always good